Frequenting the posts

Tell you what, I have been deprived of good internet connection ever since I went to college. Doesn't seem like a big deal of course, because I mainly need internet for entertainment actually :P

Tapi sejak ga dapet koneksi internet (yang kenceng), I miss out lots of thing. Like checking out the news, searching for tutorial-videos, updating my multi-language vocab....productive things besides downloading stuffs. Ngerjain tugas juga jadi sedikit terhambat (kalo tugasnya butuh referensi internet).

Pake hape? Gw ada sih hape smartphone (diturunin dari bokap), tapi kalo internetan dari situ quota jadi cepet abis. Alias harus isi pulsa lagi, isi lagi.

Modem? Kayak smart, bolt, dsb? Nambah duit lagi sis.... di rumah gw uda langganan internet yang lumayan kenceng, tapi gw cuma bisa pulang pas weekend. Itupun ga sempet gw nikmatin karena ngerjain tugas ato bepergian nemenin ortu. Itupun kalo lagi sempet internetan di rumah pas weekend, berantem internetan sama adek gw yang main game OL (۳˚-˚)۳

Wifi Kampus? Godamnit, anak UI pasti tau, wifi kampus ga ada yang kenceng! Ada sih, mungkin di fasilkom? Teknik? Kebun apel? Tapi gw anak FH bro :'( Wifi FH sekarang uda diimprove sama BEM FHUI Thanks a lot bemfh!!. Bisa kenceng banget, tapi itu ga setiap hari, dan susah cari spot kencengnya. Rebutan pula sama brobrosissis seFH. Dan suka dikepoin. Gw berasa image gw turun manakala lagi wifian di kampus kemudian ditanya sama random friend, singkat aja jadi RF

RF: "Gi ngapain lo, jee?"

Me: ".......ngewifi?" *sambil cengegesan*

RF: "Oiya? Ngapain lo?" *trus ngepo layar laptop*

       OH MY GOD PRIVACY INVASION!!!

Me: "Ehm...." *berusaha tidak terlihat terganggu*

       "Donlod lagu, cari subtitle, baca berita..."

RF: "Ooooo.... kok sendirian? Mana geng cina lo?"

......udah. Cukup. Oke, jadi kesimpulannya, wifi kampus itu tidak nyaman untuk bersenang-ria karena banyak orang yang kepo unless you're fine with that. Just for work. So I miss a lot of things. Like blogging too. For sure, I hate updating my blog while people are looking at my laptop screen.

so I will start by posting about these new sport shoes I got

-Maaf ya agak ga penting-

Tapi ini penting buat gw, karena gw ga pernah beli sepatu olahraga.

No, I'm not kidding. Sepatu olahraga yang gw pernah punya cuma sepatu olahraga sekolah, alias yang diproduksi SD, SMP, dan SMA gw. Gw ga pernah kepikiran beli yang baru karena gw ga suka pake sepatu, it hurts my toes. And I don't want my parents to spend extra money for something I don't really need. Jadi ya kalo gw main bulutangkis, futsal, dsb sepatu yang gw pakai adalah sepatu sekolah gw atau sandal crocs.

And so I finally got my first not-school sport shoes!!! Thanks a lot for my dad. He said, "Go get them, there's a big discount today." Here it is..

Sketchers. Okay, that doesn't seem like much or anything, but it glows in the dark. Fuck yeah. And they're comfortable to wear. Saya baru tahu kalo sepatu olahraga itu enak bangetttt nyam. I'll be able to use them for my parkour training @ Senayan when I finally have the time.

Those are not my pics btw. 

I can call it my early birthday present! I don't want my dad to buy me another present later. These shoes are already awesome. Thank you very much, dad

just some nights

hi! Back with the mellow me. Or you can say "galau" :(

From past experiences, I came to be a little bit aware of my drastic mood-swing. During the day, I could be laughing my ass off and having fun with my folks, but end up crying at night over anything that can trigger my tears I mean, anything aside from sad movies etc. Leave them out -__-

I thought, being a girl, that is normal. It never occurred to me as a problem until my ex-bf brought it up. Hmmm that was a long time a go. And then my dad brought it up too lol. In my dad's case, I wasn't crying at night; it was in the evening, and I was suddenly full of tears right after waking up from a rather unexpected long nap - which I restricted myself to that day as I have many things to do - and my dad didn't wake me up because he wanted me to get some rest. I know he meant well but... Poor dad, he got so confused. 

So, I was feeling rather blue this whole week. Upset. Cried 3 nights in a row, then got a sore throat. SEE, nothing good comes out from being upset, I KNOW. I know that I have to be positive-thinking, but I can't help it sometimes. There's just too much pressure going on with me preparing for the choir competition in Arezzo, Italy, selling hopeless merchandises to earn the money for going to Italy, not being able to meet up with *coughs* him, hopeless love life ugh, having issues with my singing technique, and so on & so on..

I'll be honest, a bit. The trigger was *coughs* him.

Typical "boys being ignorant" and "girls being too sensitive" thing, you know.

So I'm guessing he doesn't even realize what he has done.

Anyway, that night when I was in tears, I felt so lost. I don't understand how to tell anyone about my problems. Because it's too personal. And because of that, I channeled it all by making this song. And channeled it to twitter too, as you can see my tweets on July 18. No mention.

Hang on, we can't call it a song yet coz I don't know how to compose a song.

So I made these lyrics. Titled "Just Some Nights"

Truly

I love you, I really do.

Just haven't picked the courage

to say I do, how 'bout you?

Daytime flutter by gently

as I entrust you with dreams.

Though the days aren't perfect I can be perfectly alright,

being given unmade promises.

But some nights

I feel like losing myself.

Some nights,

I feel alone in this cramped world

because some nights,

I feel like I'm losing you.

Can't tell

if you are a curse or a spell.

I keep on falling for you,

thinking of you, missing you,

just to find myself some nights

slipping into the same despair.

A story only I can tell to myself, I am sorry,

simply not your bedtime story.

On those nights,

I feel like losing myself.

Those nights,

I feel alone in this cramped world.

because those nights,

I feel like I'm losing you.

Your side is a mystery I long to cross.

If I could get this message to you,

"Don't let me go," that's what I'd say.

Truly

I love you, I really do.

How can something this beautiful crush me so bitter.

But most nights,

you are my stars.

Most nights,

I won't be scarred by the dark

because most nights,

I know you have me.

socmed overload

Since the internet has been invented, it came
with all the advantages, the good stuffs, and the fun.

And also the bad influence like porn, game addiction,
hackers, violation of copyrights...

hold up -- I don't need to list all the bad stuffs, right? 

I know it sounds like a cliche.
We know about it so well, coz we've heard it over and over again,
perhaps from our own mom and dad who we'd wished they'd just shut up,
or from articles we'd just turn over in the newspaper,
or from our thoughts that we'd simply ignore.

Sadly, most people are still oblivious to the damage the internet has done to us. No no no. Actually, the internet isn't to blame!
Are you kidding me? Internet is very useful and helpful, it's fucking awesome;

It's just that the users are not, ironically.

People who get so hooked on the internet tend to procrastinate a lot. And without the internet, they feel half of their life taken from them coz they don't know what else to do. Stupid spoilt children....and stupid parents who raise them by giving them gadgets as toys.
We get sleep-deprivation, bcoz the net keeps us up with its endless offer of surfing. The extreme extent some extreme internet users develop then, and is time-consuming and LIFE-consuming, is:
1. Porn addiction
2. Online game addiction

"Oh whew, luckily I'm not like one of them!"
You can say that. That you're clean, a non-addicted internet user.
Yeah? Think twice.

maybe we should add one more:
3. Social media addiction

Yes...that has been disturbing me a lot. It's not that I dislike social media.
But people are getting more crazy about socmed that it has become disturbing.

How? The number of socmeds they've joined!
Here in Indonesia, or Jakarta specifically, lots of people use:

facebook twitter Instagram

path ask.fm youtube blogspot

foursquare +Google Pinterest tumblr

you can read this article from vulcanpost.com about "Social Media Craze in Indonesia".

I have some of them too, you know:
twitter, facebook, this blog, pinterest, & google plus
but perhaps most active at twitter & pinterest because I gotta admit that those two have interesting concepts.

Lately, it seems like everybody's trying to get me to join path & instagram, or ask.fm. -__- it bugs me. Because I don't get the point. I've got 5 socmed accounts already, I don't want to waste more time updating 3 more ughh. Nih yaaa,
Gw dari twitter & fb bisa upload foto sekaligus caption, ga perlu plus instagram lagi.
Kalo mau cerita+foto, lah ini uda ada blogspot, ga perlu path lagi.
Path/instagram posts annoys me. There are some users who have the need to update it everyday.

#Hashtag #Overuse

Instagram hashtags gets me on my nerves when I see them in facebook photo uploads.
#selfie #friends #me #pretty #fun #me #beautiful #smile #bighug
..... lama-lama buta ngliat begituan tiap hari
#I #dont #give #a #shit

Selfie Generation

not to mention the annoying habit of some instagram users, who have thousands selfie of themselves. You want people to admire you so much, princess? When someone stalks you, you'll be like "He's such a freak. Why should this happen to me??" when it's actually your fault for putting your pretty face all over the media, attention whore. Sorry for the inappropriate language, I just don't really get the #selfie generation.
It's okay when you have selfies below 20% of the all the photos you take. But when it's 50% or more....then you are a narcist.

Foodpornnnnn

Or another type of insta users...the one who photos their meals. Everytime.
One of them even got mad at me when I took a spoon of my own food, just because he wants it untouched for the sake of his instagram uploads.
I said, "Then take it now, I only took a spoon. What is the big deal?"
He yelled, "It's ruined now! Because of you! Siapa yang mau foto makanan udah kemakan??"
And that is, ladies & gentlemen, my brother.

Ask.fm : The "kepo" site

ask.fm is another bizarre thing. More like "kurang kerjaan"
(literally translates to "having nothing to do", a.k.a no point whatsoever)
"kepo" itself means busybody, but you can kind of say it's like stalking too.
Lagian pertanyaannya ga pentingggg dan gaje.

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What I'm saying is....enough with this bullshits people.
Why are you so into "I have to be in every social media!" ?
It's wasting so much time, not to mention with having all 11 socmed accounts I mention above.

Watch this video, I got it from 9gag.tv




Before watching this video, I also read this article "This is why young Singaporeans think their lives suck"
Quoting some of the lines I remember til now

Sadly, no one ever shares what really goes on in their lives. Why would they? They show-off their best moments and hide the ugly realities. Its not longer about sharing your life, but showing a filtered like inducing version of it. We crave validation from the number of likes our status updates or instagram pictures get.

The nature of social media allows for immediate and excessive comparison on so many more levels than ever before.  We don't realise it but we also in turn measure ourselves up to this skewed version of the lives that our friends project. And this very often leads to one thing - depression.

That is so true...

Anyways, that's it. I'm merely expressing my uncensored thoughts about socmed overload. Apologies if anyone feels offended in any way.